Just came back from singing class today. Other than a few minor hiccups throughout the day due to inexperience, I think it still ended reasonably well.
Today, I feel like talking about power. Holding power is good. It gives you authority over matters, and whatever you say, people respect/forced to respect you because of your position. You can brag to all your friends that you're someone important somewhere now. And at the end of the whole thing, it also goes on paper so you can show off to your future employers.
But I never loved power, as contrast to most people these days. I've made it clear during my excos interview that I'm NOT interested in being exco, but i'm willing to help out in whichever way necessary. Somehow, that got me in. Nevermind that now. Anyway, with power comes responsibilities. Life starts to change for me. Suddenly, I've to start making decisions for things. Suddenly, I need to take initiatives to support the president in whichever ways possible. And due to added responsibilities, sometimes relationships between people become complex, to the point that some perceive it to look like a power play. And seriously, I don't enjoy myself at all because of all these human relations kinda complications.
This should not be the case. I think, people tends to misunderstand each other when they dunno each other well enough. It doesn't seems like alot of people understand the virtue of giving "the benefits of the doubt", and prefer to read things negatively. Or perhaps, humans are inheritantly pessimistic. Then people starts to do things that are in contrary to the bigger picture, whether they realise it or not. I'm trying my best to see what I can do to help resolve all these little conflicts and misunderstandings, before they gradually pile up into a pile of intangible mess over time, but eventually, people really need to change their attitudes... mutually.
I personally believed and I hoped, that everyone join singing club out of the passion for music, and that since everyone share the same interest, everyone should get along quite well. In chinese, there's this word called "知音人", means "someone who understands you", or directly translated as "someone who knows your music". Regardless of whether you're excos or seniors, performing or events, welcome to a home of music lovers. The excos are only holding a post so that they can be responsible for ensuring the smooth running of the club. It doesn't indicate superiority. And for the excos, I hope that while we are all pulled into all this adminstrative maelstorm, we don't forget that we are also still in this club because we love music, albeit we each might have different visions for how to advance the club.
At the end of the day, I wish that I can just tell everyone this openly, but I'll be naive to think that everything will work out well by everyone just reading this entry. People are more likely to take this entry negatively, rather than constructively. So I've said my one cent worth... (actually is worth less than that since this entry would amount to nothing eventually).
Thursday, August 20, 2009
Monday, August 17, 2009
1st entry
Hmm... This is the 3rd blog I've ever made. 1st blog was intended for close friends, 2nd for personal ranting. Thought I should have one that is at least open to public, for those who are keen to know more about me. Hmm... At least, it's somewhere that I plan to debate on controversial stuffs, and see if I could get some opinions. Controversial stuffs? Read on~
I was just reading abit about City Harvest Church. Been there before myself, at least for 2 of their functions. All the controversy surrounding them since their existence, as well as all the bad encounters with Christians have made me somewhat bitter about their religion, and some of their believers. For now, let's just focus on CHC. Hmm... Last I read off other webby and thinking about some friends from there, it seemed like after they attended CHC, they seemed especially driven towards earning money. Seemed like prosperity is their God-given blessing... Perhaps they are trying to proved they are those blessed by God, which explains their dilligence, or...? I'm not sure if someone whom I've known betrayed her passion for music for money/"God" did so for the same reason. It's kinda sad, really. I kept wanting to believe that people who can appreciate music ain't inheritantly that superficial, not to mention a wee despicable after a recent SMS...
I know of yet another friend, who was a rather misguided teen in his earlier teenagehood, until he went to CHC. I dunno him that long to know to what degree is that change, but apparently the "new" him that the rest of us have always known is always perceive as alittle strange... sometimes smiling to himself, and seemingly silly most of the time. Quite sometime ago, he even wanted to borrow a few hundred bucks from me to go into some MLM investments. I had my doubts though since he's sorta a good friend of mine during army days, I'm inclined to trust him. Eventually, my parents advised me against it. I haven't heard much from him since then.
Recent media coverage has also highlighted the topic of Christians from the same church (COOS) attempting to hijack a secular group (AWARE). That is not to mention that the key conspirator (or so it seems) is an MP, who's also from the same church. And strangely enough, the church's pastor attempt to claim that there was no attempt on the church itself to organise such a coup, even though their official website is very specific about being anti-homosexual practices. The issue of homosexualism would be discussed at a later date, I guess. Just sidetracking a little to show how misguided/unwise Christians have become, in the name of their God. It seems people have the tendency to speak of behalf, and even use God as their shield to cover for their own selfishness. I "applaud" at this level of despicability.
The bottomline? I try to stay neutral towards christians, despite my disagreement in their belief. At the end of the day, no one crosses the line, I'll stay on my own side of the line. Personally though, I feel that actions are more important than what each others' faith is. If the objective is to bring out the good in everyone and help each other out, why not? Still... If I'm the pastor of CHC, I rather be forking out the money to send Christians overseas on missions to aid people in third world countries and those hit by natural disasters, than spend it on lavish decorations and stage, etc. I did remember there's some particular statements about the church should not be built lavish, but I'm not a bible person to remember verse and the gospel it's from.
I've said my two-cents worth on this topic. I'm expecting some level of flaming should this blog go public and someone reads this. But I'll still like to make a disclaimer that it's not meant to be a sweeping statement. It's just these bigots and some disappointment from friends/family that I'm rather tired with Christianity in general.
After I've press the publish button, I'm lead to a confirmation webby with an ad on Scientology. One Bible, so many interpretation, and everyone's claiming they are right and following the Bible. I can't help but think that Present-Day Christianity Teachings are already merely just very personal perspective of the same bible. There claims to be no interpretation, but people still need some level of interpretation to apply them anyway, and will always do so in the way they think makes most sense to account for what they would like to believe the bible intends to teach.
I was just reading abit about City Harvest Church. Been there before myself, at least for 2 of their functions. All the controversy surrounding them since their existence, as well as all the bad encounters with Christians have made me somewhat bitter about their religion, and some of their believers. For now, let's just focus on CHC. Hmm... Last I read off other webby and thinking about some friends from there, it seemed like after they attended CHC, they seemed especially driven towards earning money. Seemed like prosperity is their God-given blessing... Perhaps they are trying to proved they are those blessed by God, which explains their dilligence, or...? I'm not sure if someone whom I've known betrayed her passion for music for money/"God" did so for the same reason. It's kinda sad, really. I kept wanting to believe that people who can appreciate music ain't inheritantly that superficial, not to mention a wee despicable after a recent SMS...
I know of yet another friend, who was a rather misguided teen in his earlier teenagehood, until he went to CHC. I dunno him that long to know to what degree is that change, but apparently the "new" him that the rest of us have always known is always perceive as alittle strange... sometimes smiling to himself, and seemingly silly most of the time. Quite sometime ago, he even wanted to borrow a few hundred bucks from me to go into some MLM investments. I had my doubts though since he's sorta a good friend of mine during army days, I'm inclined to trust him. Eventually, my parents advised me against it. I haven't heard much from him since then.
Recent media coverage has also highlighted the topic of Christians from the same church (COOS) attempting to hijack a secular group (AWARE). That is not to mention that the key conspirator (or so it seems) is an MP, who's also from the same church. And strangely enough, the church's pastor attempt to claim that there was no attempt on the church itself to organise such a coup, even though their official website is very specific about being anti-homosexual practices. The issue of homosexualism would be discussed at a later date, I guess. Just sidetracking a little to show how misguided/unwise Christians have become, in the name of their God. It seems people have the tendency to speak of behalf, and even use God as their shield to cover for their own selfishness. I "applaud" at this level of despicability.
The bottomline? I try to stay neutral towards christians, despite my disagreement in their belief. At the end of the day, no one crosses the line, I'll stay on my own side of the line. Personally though, I feel that actions are more important than what each others' faith is. If the objective is to bring out the good in everyone and help each other out, why not? Still... If I'm the pastor of CHC, I rather be forking out the money to send Christians overseas on missions to aid people in third world countries and those hit by natural disasters, than spend it on lavish decorations and stage, etc. I did remember there's some particular statements about the church should not be built lavish, but I'm not a bible person to remember verse and the gospel it's from.
I've said my two-cents worth on this topic. I'm expecting some level of flaming should this blog go public and someone reads this. But I'll still like to make a disclaimer that it's not meant to be a sweeping statement. It's just these bigots and some disappointment from friends/family that I'm rather tired with Christianity in general.
After I've press the publish button, I'm lead to a confirmation webby with an ad on Scientology. One Bible, so many interpretation, and everyone's claiming they are right and following the Bible. I can't help but think that Present-Day Christianity Teachings are already merely just very personal perspective of the same bible. There claims to be no interpretation, but people still need some level of interpretation to apply them anyway, and will always do so in the way they think makes most sense to account for what they would like to believe the bible intends to teach.
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