It's just pretty tiring to hold expectations for people. Sometimes, it's unavoidable that one has to put one's warm face into someone's cold butt. Figure of speech by the way.

And it's not possible to clarify if the other person/people have any misunderstanding of ourselves. How else do we know what's wrong? Or perhaps we should learn to stop pleasing others. But if so, it would means having to tolerate certain things for years before someone decides to make a move... out of this relationship. Be it working relationship or love, or etc.

"If there's no nerves, there's no pain"

Perhaps I should learn to be less sensitive to some things. Ignorance (not innocence) can be bliss.

But still, I wonder what could be left of my humanity after a decade or less.