It's really not about winning or losing. It's just... why can't I just get things done right?

At the end of the day, i'm really not good at anything at all. Not even singing. Not even academics. Not even human relationships. Not even luck.

The least I could do is keep a smiling face and tell people I'm ok. It's really not ok. But... "I'm ok." Least I could do is not to be a wet blanket or make them feel obliged that they need to pamper me with consolation.

It would be nice, if we could just say what we really want to say for once, without having to worry about negative judgments. It would be nice, if I could say "i like you".

But i guess i have to make do with contenting with assuming that this is a beautiful misunderstanding on my part.